A Cold Shower

I stepped into the cold and discovered the fire.

It rages like a fever in the body.

At times I can not be sure of what is true and what is not.

I shake and sweat and see things I can’t be sure are there.

I vomit, but not the contents of my stomach, the body vomits energy that has collected over the years and become stagnant, toxic and poisonous.

I fall to my knees.

I’m certain I am possessed.

The fire keeps on burning and I wait.

I’m afraid for my life.

I am sick I’m sure of it.

This is not sickness.

This is healing.

The fire of truth burns only all that is false.

Only falsehoods burn.

Only falsehoods create pain.

Tears are welcome now.

They help to wash away the ashes and clear the path.

This is the doorway to awakening.

This is the death of the ego.

This is my rebirth.

-Zoe Patterson

-Fighting Back

Author: zoepattersonfightingback

Practice what you love with love, working IN the moment and not FOR a moment. The world does not stop for defeat or for victory and neither should you. I have known victory and I am no stranger to defeat. Despite my personal challenges I still wake each day with the intention to practice what I love and this has served me well. I am an England boxing coach and qualified personal trainer, working hard to help others practice what they love.

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