When I am in need of shelter

Hot wet tears scald my cheek.

Oh what I’d give, for the courage to speak.

But when I open my mouth,

All I can say is I’m sorry.

I’m ashamed of my feelings.

I’m scared of them too.

How could I ever explain that to you?

So I put pen to paper,

And hope that in time,

I will be able tell you, what goes on inside.

It’s lonely here. I’m tired and aching.

I don’t want to give up, but my soul,

its breaking.

Who can I turn to?

Who can I trust?

When I am in need of shelter.

With no loving family to embrace,

No lovers arms as a resting place,

I look to the sky and I hope for the best as I pray to the universe for the answer.

And as I taste the saltiness of my tears,

I am reminded that just as the waves are a part of the ocean, I too am a part of something much bigger.

And the thought soothes me,

For a while.

Author: zoepattersonfightingback

Practice what you love with love, working IN the moment and not FOR a moment. The world does not stop for defeat or for victory and neither should you. I have known victory and I am no stranger to defeat. Despite my personal challenges I still wake each day with the intention to practice what I love and this has served me well. I am an England boxing coach and qualified personal trainer, working hard to help others practice what they love.

5 thoughts on “When I am in need of shelter”

    1. Just finished your book Zoe. What a strong, enduring girl you are. Your poem, to me, shows a girl not afraid of her feelings. 😍

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  1. Zoe, Just finished your book. I also spent time in care but luckily for my twin sister and I we were not sexually abused but emotionally and physically was the norm. Words can do so much damage but I am so proud of you and what you have achieved. Words can also do good so my wish for you is that you live your dream the way you want to and on your terms. Good luck Zoe.

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    1. Hi Shelley,
      Thank you for taking the time to write. I’m sorry that you and your twin sister had to endure abuse in care. I agree that words can certainly do a lot of damage! But like you, I also understand that words can do so much good too, and my wish is that my blog goes some way towards helping others who have experienced similar to what we have understand that they are not alone.
      Much love to you and very best wishes for today and always,


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